Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Pelangi Malam

Cahaya pelangi sekali lagi menari-nari di ufuk timur mentertawakan aku yang bingung.

Menampakkan yang hati ini masih mencari puncak kasih abadi.

Akan sampai nafas aku ini umpama nafas naga bima sakti bercakrawalakan cahaya penerang dewa-dewi kayangan.

Kasih yang mengalir di sepanjang empat baris sungai yang telah dijanjikan bersama lafaz permulaan surah menerangkan seluruh fana.

Yang dibicara bukan kata, yang dilafaz bukan sifat, yang wujud hanyalah Dia.

Demi menerangkan seluruh kasih abadi tersemat baris kata bersama irama lama.

Yang wujud hanya Dia.

Kewujudan pelangi malam yang tidak dapat diolah dengan kurnia deria seakan memerli aku untuk terus mencari keajaiban.

Tidak ada aku, tidak ada pelangi, tidak ada malam.

Masih butakah aku untuk menerima hakikat cinta sebenar.

Tidak ada satu kemampuan dari aku untuk melafazkan apa jua bicara kata.

Semua hanya Cinta.

Cinta yang menghidupkan setiap detik nafas, daya, usaha, kata, bicara, apa pun jua.

Dari mana puncanya akal jika bukan untuk mencari kasih yang abadi.

Mabuk aku di dalam Cinta yang fana.

Lemas di dalam lautan Cinta yang abadi.

Tiada yang wujud melainkan Dia.

Tidakkah kamu mahu mengetahui yang tersirat?

Apa?

Aku sudah tiada.

Saturday, July 02, 2011

The Man Who Wasn't There

Once I dreamt about a man who wasn't there.
He wasn't there again today but still i met him again.
I wish he wasn't there and he still wasn't there.
I met the man who wasn't there on the stairs.
But I forgot whether I was going up or down.
And I stood on the stairways with the man who wasn't there.
I wanted to go up but I felt I was from above.
I wanted to go down but I felt I was from below.
Still I was on the stairways with the man who wasn't there.
I shook his hand and say hello.
To came a such surprise the man said he wasn't there.
I felt I knew him from a long time a go.
But I could not recognized the man who wasn't there.
I stood up and left.
But I could not decide.
Was I from above or from below.
I looked up and saw the place I was before.
I looked down and saw the place I was before.
I am here and there all at once.
The man who wasn't there greet me with a hearty hello.
I told him that he wasn't there and he told me he wasn't there.
I still see the man who wasn't there.
All of this could not be happening.
Unless if I knew the truth.
What is the truth?
The truth is the man wasn't there from before.
He wasn't there from after.
He wasn't there from anywhere.
And still I saw the man who wasn't there.
I closed my eyes and count from 1 to 5.
Just to know where I was before.
I couldn't hide the truth.
That the man who wasn't there told me that he wasn't there.
I cried and cried.
I do not want to meet the man who wasn't there.
I smiled and smiled.
The man who wasn't there still stood on the stairways.
Laugh and cry, Proud and shy, at last I knew.
That I am the man who wasn't there.
And I am no more.
All that is left is the man who wasn't there.